It’s funny to me how women don’t like to make eye contact at the fertility clinic. We’re all in the same boat! Hello, it’s alright for other women to see you there because, ahem, they are there too. But still, women do not acknowledge each other. It’s as if they are so ashamed of their plight of infertility they do not even want to connect with others going through the same ordeal. And yet, women flock to blogs and infertility chat rooms. Perhaps they would rather remain a nameless, faceless case of infertility.
Not me. Misery loves company, that’s what I always say. So this morning at the clinic, I made it a point to connect with the other women. After all, we could actually be having babies around the same time next year {God I pray this for all of the women there today}. I asked one why the clinic always seems to put a different doctor’s name on the form. I thought I saw Dr. Hill but Dr. Eblen was noted this morning. And then I chucked with another about how I can’t seem to remember what floor to choose in the elevator for the parking garage. After the countless times I’ve been to the clinic, you’d think I could recall this simple detail. I wanted her to know I’d been there many times before. . .that I was like her. She laughed and commented how many times she’d been there lately and she should remember as well. There. A connection. Hopefully now she knows she’s not alone on her long and exhausting journey.
I feel a strong conviction to drop my guard and do this as much as possible while I visit the clinic over the next couple of months. I’m sure I won’t be changing the world by being cordial but perhaps I can help someone feel less alone as they walk this road.
I was cleared this morning to begin another round of Clomid. I’ll start the drugs today {please pray they don’t make me crazy} and then I’ll do a follicular ultrasound next week to make sure I have mature eggs. Too much information?! Sorry, when you’ve had one of your close friends all up in your fertility you kinda drop your pride when it comes to these things. I appreciate your interest and your prayers. Please believe with me that my lone left ovary will produce the egg I need to conceive this month.
What’s your infertility story? Don’t be like those women at the clinic. Make eye contact. Post a comment and share your story so others can be encouraged.
Hopeful,
Fertility-Clinic Chronicles is a post from: The Pregnancy Companion